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THE REWARD

THE REWARD

Upon birth, social programming injects a secret virus upon every human. We might even say it is the unspoken challenge that drives a soul through life.

Disguised as aspiration for authenticity, it consistently denies the possibility of attaining it. No matter what part of the world we come from, what religion we profess, what cultural or economic level we work through, or what gender colors our perception, a human being grows up to assume that they deserve better. Trophies. Poor and rich alike, somewhere, sometime, a prize is forthcoming for all the sacrifices and privations we are forced to endure. Like a carrot perpetually dangling in front of the horizon, the disease is embedded in the attitude that we possess the right to future rewards, importance, status, approval and recognition.

From our parents and our family, our surroundings, and every step we take, we voluntarily submit to discomfort, humiliation, and a wide variety of abuses that obligate us to go against our nature. We resign ourselves to physical deformation, fat or thin, muscular or weak, in order to comply [...]

FUTURE FOR LITTLE GIRLS

FUTURE FOR LITTLE GIRLS

In the 1950’s when I started schooling, little girls were brought up to please, make babies, and look pretty. The only avenue for growth available to the female gender was a “good” academic education. But, it offered a dubious freedom. Rote learning had been left behind a decade earlier, but not the mentality behind it. Learning and information were stressed while understanding and sensitivity were enigmatically left to fate or to the imagination. Inbred feminine survival instinct kept women repressed and neurotic on the inside, while carefully molding an appearance of acceptable freedom.

In 1965 I received a degree from an Ivy League university and a year later another. Rather than grant me freedom, my intellectual development only augmented a sense of alienation. The aggressive climate of politics, racism, continuous sensory assault, the feminist liberation campaign and other movements both diffused and exacerbated complexities, focusing almost exclusively on behavioral display and surface relief of tensions. Oppression and violence, rampant military regimes, leftist revolutions, and hopeless death tolls in the name of human rights defined the [...]

ALONENESS IS NOT LONELY

ALONENESS IS NOT LONELY

“There is a hole in aloneness that leads into everythingness.”   -  ZR

Normally, we don’t know how to be alone.  We look for things to occupy our time and space, and immerse ourselves in projects, people and intensities, anything so as not to feel ourselves.  Many people who claim to enjoy being alone use isolation as an excuse to do and be as they please, without distractions, diving into some activity or another to cover up the fear of insufficiency, meaninglessness, and their own selfishness.  This is not aloneness.

Aloneness is pure experiencing, free from boundaries or targets.  We are at the centre as sentient observers, but do not concern ourselves with any self-description or reflection.  Instead, the experience suggests a positioning whereby we are whole, good, perfect, and in a sense irrelevant.  There is no time and space in the experience of Self.  There is nothing to criticize, complain about, compete with, or achieve.  It is an utterly sensitive participation in the totality of life in any given moment, as deep as it can be subtle.  Aloneness [...]

WHAT’S IN A NAME?

WHAT’S IN A NAME?

“What’s in a name?  That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet… Romeo, doff thy name, and for that name which is no part of thee, take all myself.” (William Shakespeare, “Romeo and Juliet”)

Woman is one with Nature.  As a force, she controls without intending to; she follows without submitting.  She embodies the spirit of cooperation, not because she reasons it out but because her nature embraces the whole.

Can anything be greater than the miracle and vastness of Creation?  At her core a woman is the totality of the life forces that engender creation, but it seems that this is not enough.  Unawares, a woman persistently defines herself, chooses to be defined, and sets out to fulfil the expectations of others.  What does it take to see that her opinions of herself are controlled by others, and by a patriarchal model of the past?

To answer the proverbial question, “who am I?” instead of becoming aware of ourselves feeling, we look to references, precedent, opinions and expectations with the hope that others [...]

FREEDOM

FREEDOM (original text 2012)

 Am I free because circumstances allow me to express myself, or because I feel free?

We don’t seem to know how to enjoy our energies without having to “do” something with them.  What we can do freely becomes more important than the experience of being free.

“Freedom” is another excuse to “do” more. When we are unable to differentiate real freedom from performance, freedom becomes exhibitionism.  Our world is full of such manifestations.

Freedom is a spiritual state of Being.  Its experience leads to respect for all life. If we know ourselves free we feel compelled to allow others their natural rights.  A spiritually free person responds to life without going into hiding or isolation.  Such a person lives a process of continuous introspection, striving for purity in expression. If something is offensive, the first step in the mind of a spiritual person is to investigate what is being offended and clear any shadows from within.  The finger points back to self rather than to the surrounding world.  Freedom speaks through us in our silences as in our words and [...]

IN THE ORDER OF RAINBOWS

IN THE ORDER OF RAINBOWS:  A FEMININE MODEL (original text 2011)

 

Our world model, implemented into our social machinery, into commerce and through gender dynamics is masculine: angular, fixed, aggressive and utilitarian.  Predicated on negotiation, challenge and winning, on acquisition and exploitation.  It is secure and immediate, but not natural.  Energies respond to a vision of detail and separation, to categories rather than qualities.  To the particular and not to the whole.

We propose the drafting of a different model.  This, the feminine model, would be in the order of a Rainbow.  Within the spectrum colors do not mix, nor fuse, nor overlay one another, and none is better than the other.  They do not create ugly hybrid mixtures as happens in the physical world.  They appear individually: clear, clean, and each one whole.  Inner vision further reveals a colored ocean of continuous movement behind appearances, one layer over or next to another without one dominating the under layer or the surrounding space.

If the subtle forces of colour and movement that rule the universe and our world, function [...]

THE RADICAL SHIFT

THE RADICAL SHIFT (original text 2011)

POWER

Power is automatically associated with physical control, either direct or implied.  It seems natural that men hold it vis à vis the external world and women in the inner realms. The fact that this division has existed for as long as we can remember, reflecting the nature and energetic structure of the genders, does not mean that women and men are not equally endowed for all modalities of power. Still, the physical and mental forms have dominated our world up to now, and for a reason.  Women were not equipped to handle it in the manner and to the extent to which it is being wielded today.

It would seem that a certain amount of stability and security is needed before a more subtle expression of power can prevail. Woman stands revealed in her power as priestess, as mother of the race, and ancient sage.  Here she is recognised, her influence paramount, although always in the background, allowed or disallowed by the establishment.  If we search for notable women in antiquity, we [...]

KNOW THYSELF XXI – TO STEP ASIDE

KNOW THYSELF XXI

TO STEP ASIDE 

Knowing when to step aside requires social maturity. Knowing how to step aside from oneself requires development of Consciousness. It’s not about pushing someone or something aside. It’s not about distancing, adjusting a focus, or imposing artificial neutrality. It entails putting aside all references in order to “see” and “know”.

We use verbal language to think and to evaluate what and how we feel. We compare and remember through images that convey thoughts qualified with feelings. Everything passes through the conscious process of the concrete mind. Even abstraction is based on conceptual units of thought. Observation of every sort goes through the coding and decoding process of the linear mind that uses vocabulary, perpetually seeking fixity and definition.

Our identity is based on impressions and evaluations, as are our relationships, our values, our ideals and our code of ethics. Everything we do goes through this filtering process to be catalogued on a scale. From light to dark, from 0 to 100, from good to bad, there are infinite “relatives”.

Personality is [...]

WE NEVER PARTED

AFFECTIONATELY, DURING THIS SPECIAL TIME OF YEAR

 

WE NEVER PARTED

We are. Always were and always will be

expression of the most complete, most exalted,

delicate perfection.

 

Even without knowing how, we illumine everything around us

through a smile, through a loving regard,

through the laughter of a child

or through the wise hand of the adult extending itself in guidance.

 

Because we are the instrument of Creation Itself,

uniting in ourselves all the Orders of creation,

from the smallest atom in the simplest element

to the most sublime and powerful archangel.

 

We are the Consciousness of All That Is.

 

We are the most beautiful creation

that immaculately reflects the Source.

 

There is no act or happening that is not part

of the Supreme Energy of the Absolute

in us.

All else is shadow and never was.

 

The darkness that opposes Love

has no power [...]

FLIGHT OF LOVE-DESIRE

FLIGHT OF LOVE-DESIRE 

It all begins in the Mother of all things as Feeling 

Vision without center

fathomless possibility

streaming into

a journey of Love-Desire

shaft of limitless diamond light

gauze-like shades of color

breathing

falling in delightful rhythm

forms intensely

pulsing

nothingness and all

as yet unknowing

  Maelstrom

eternal center and periphery

expressing

Being

coordinating

diaphanous accords

amplitude, rhythmic cadences

perception of multiplicity

shades of light

resonance

perennial relationship

manifesting

 Coalescence

reproducing and attuning

this and that

infinite options

Will to Be as longing

versions of Self as different tastes

extending and contracting

space created

by a sigh

transformation, satisfaction and pleasure

aspiration

a game sparkling in a pocket deep inside, concealed

  Incarnation 

Diving into narrow emptiness

landing

immersed in textures of Earth

a world designed

ecstasy of dance [...]

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